i was only able to write 317 words tonight. i'm feeling a little bit disappointed. but i suppose such are the rhythms of the writing craft. and i need to get used to it.
i realized that when i'm emotionally distraught i find it hard to tap into the creative flow. tonight i'm emotionally distraught because of running after deadlines and people committed to work on them. i'm distraught because commitments aren't followed through and work becomes so taxing having to run after people to do their job. a job they committed to do. yes, not everybody works like me. but seriously, if you commit to a job, shouldn't you think about actually doing it and not slacking off? why would you slack off for something you're paid to do?
i'm venting. it's been a while since i did that in public spaces such as this. but i realized part of the reason why i experienced a long writer's block is not being able to admit my feelings freely without fearing judgment.
someday soon i hope to learn how to navigate through these emotions and learn how to fuel them into creativity.
Yes, I concur that emotional distress makes it harder for the creativity to flow. I couldn't pick up a camera for months last summer/fall while struggling through a small-scale identity crisis.
ReplyDeleteAt least you gave life to something. And, 317 words *is* something. :)
thank you rachel! :) still have to learn how to deal with that.
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